Instinct

 

 

This is a story about commradery, friendship, leadership and battling adversity.

 

The preface:

 

“So you’re definitely coming”, I asked my long time best friend Milly “Yeah for sure, I’ll call Renae and Oscar, and you call Jamie”, “Remember to tell them that were exploring the caves, so tell them to bring clothes that can get wet, hiking boots and snacks and torches” I said, and I was about to hang up when, “You know Jamie might bring that friend of his, Edmund or something, so be warned okay. I’ll see yah bye”. She hung up, I hit end and then called Jamie.

Instinct

 

Suddenly a lightning bolt flashed across the sky, it lit up the cave and that’s when I realised they were all gazing wide eyed at me. At first I didn’t know what to make of their expressions. First I thought “What did I do this time?” but then it dawned on me, they were looking to me to lead them. It took another crack of thunder to awaken me from my stupor.

“Okay guys,” I said not just to them but to myself, “any ideas of how we are going to get out of this mess”. I looked up and found Edward with his hand up. What a stupid thing to do, I mean we are in the middle of a war zone for Christ’s sake, we are not voting for who should be class president. “Yes?” I questioned him, not even with the slightest idea of where this could be going “what do you think”. He looked up and inhaled deeply, probably prepping himself for the worst, and then he said “What if, okay this maybe isn’t the best idea. But what if, we legit, but I don’t mean like cowering away in some corner I mean we leg it to the…um… rainforest where we can sort out our priorities, you know whether to stay together or search for our families or what. So we should maybe start by deciding a route to the rainf-”. “Ohh, not the rainforest, it so disgusting” Renae spat out the last word as if it was poisonous; “can we at least hide somewhere were I’m not going to get eaten by a giant spider or something”. We all burst out laughing, Renae was still living in her own little world.  “I think we take a vote, all in favour of the rainforest say aye!” “Aye!” was said in almost unison. It would have been pretty cool if it wasn’t for the fact that right now we were under some pretty serious threat.

“I think it’s the rainforest.” I said, aiming it at Renae more than anyone else. “Okay, from what it looks like we have two options, option one is we cut straight across the town and opinion two is that we take the long hike round” I paused and considered what I was doing “I think it would be best to go round, because we are all wearing hiking gear and I don’t want our party of six to be any smaller than it is”. I didn’t realise but the entire time that I was saying this I had my eyes shut, so I opened them.

 It was starting get lighter, you could see from our cave the sun’s light slowly illuminating the surrounds. So I could see their faces a little clearer now. Edward and Jamie looked really...well… kinda hot, with their clothes and hair plastered with dried mud and both of them had large rips in their shirts, and small nicks and cuts on their faces and arm (they weren’t as good as me at caving). They looked really adventurous and wild. Jamie was distracted by the sunrise, facing into it, the light cast shadows on his muscled face making him look like some kind of male model on an outdoor photo shoot. Edward looked up at me his beautiful face was made even more so with his emerald eyes. I blushed, I could feel the blood rushing to my face. So, embarrassed, I turned my attention to Milly, Renae and Oscar. They were huddled in together, I don’t know if it was the cold or if they just didn’t want to be far away from each other. Milly and Oscar are twins; they had black hair and smooth porcelain skin. Their mother was Korean and their father is Mongolian. They didn’t know their mum much; she died of pneumonia when they were four. They have that kind of twin telepathy that when one feels depressed the other does, and when the other feels happy the corresponding twin would feel happy. Renae is shorter than the rest of us; her hair is blonde and hair skin olive. She is, in my opinion, the prettiest in the class, but she disagreed. Renae is a “lifelong friend” to Milly and Oscar, even though she had only known them for seven years. They were sixteen now, so that’s nine years of not knowing them, I didn’t understand it and I had a feeling that Renae didn’t either. And then there was me, I’m tallish, and brunette with an athletic build, but in my mind I wasn’t anything special.

 Then BANG! I felt the ground shake as the entire right side of the range was blown up.  I hit the ground hard and I’m pretty sure the only thing breaking my fall was the conveniently placed rock; I could see my vision failing as black spots began to haze my vision then nothing, just black.

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“Is she alright?”, “Oh my god look at her head!”, “Quick!  Get her a towel to put around her head.  I think she’s coming round.” I wish that last statement, though entirely true, was false.  Because the pain in my head was becoming more and more strong as I was slowly regaining consciousness.  I could feel my head being gently lifted and having a towel wrapped around it.

Bethany.” A soft, almost crooning, voice was calling me back.  “Come on, Bethany”. I groaned and fluttered my eyes open.  Immediately I saw who the owner of the soft, crooning voice was, for Edward’s face was surveying my own and he was only inches away from me.

I started taking in other images.  The other four worried faces, who were off to one side. The brightness of the light.  I guessed the sun was well and risen. “How long was I out?” I asked breathlessly.  “A good half an hour. We were really starting to get worried” Edward replied, still with the same croon.  

I reached up and pressed a hand to my head.  That was a bad idea.  I winced and pulled my hand away quickly. “Is it bleeding?” I slurred, not able to put my tongue around the words.  “Yes.” said Jamie’s voice.  “We had to put the towel around it to stop the bleeding.  But I think it will be alright.” He didn’t sound too sure about that last bit.

“Can you sit up?” Edward asked.  “I can help you if you want?”. Not wanting to deny a chance to be closer to his perfection, “I think I might need some help” I said, still slurring. Immediately he gently took my arm and helped me up.  As he let go, my head started throbbing and I fell back because of the pain.  I was waiting to hit the ground, but I didn’t feel it. Instead, a pair of hands caught me, pulled me in the air and cradled me to a wall where they propped me up and held me there, not wanting to let go.

 “Thanks.” I said, now able to talk properly. “Are you alright?” Milly and Oscar asked. “Yeah."I answered.  “What happened? All I remember was a bang and then I hit the deck.”. “They bombed the range.” Oscar answered.  “Half the mountain side is rubble. I guess we’ll have to go through the town.” “That’s cool.” I said.  “We could probably see what they are doing to our parents then?” “Yes, but first you’re going to rest”, Edward said, still holding me upright “We’re all going to need a rest, because we’re all going to need all the strength we can muster.” No one complained about that, they just spread out and lay down on the floor. Edward helped me lie down then he lay next to me. We slept through the day and on until the night had been and gone, only to wake up the next morning.

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The next morning my head felt so much better and I was full of energy.  So was everyone else as far as I could tell. We ate the muesli bar my mum had packed for me to eat on our little camping trip, then we headed off very slowly and stealthily down the mountain side. When we came to the outskirts of town we went to Jamie’s house and had a real breakfast. It was during that breakfast that I realised that, apart from one muesli bar, I hadn’t eaten for two and a half days. As I was chewing on my sugary cereal I realised that we had formed little relationships.  There was Milly and Jamie – they had woken as the sun rose and started to talk.  Apart from our journey down the mountain side they hadn’t stopped, and I could visibly see them edging closer toward each other.

There was Oscar and Renae - it turned out that last night it had started to rain again.  (Rain was an understatement.  It had started storming.) Renae, who was scared of thunder, went to the closest person grabbed on to them and wouldn’t let go until it had stopped. Of course Oscar woke up when Renae had grabbed him, but instead of kicking her off he just held her and made her feel better. So now they were best of friends.

And there was Edward and I - Since I had hit my head yesterday and was cared for by the courageous Edward, I… well...sort of got attached to him. And I was pretty sure the feeling was mutual. After we had finished breakfast we headed closer into town.  Just past MCCready’s place we heard a flurry of words that were indecipherable and then we saw two men running at us. Edward stepped in front of me and as I watched in my peripheral vision I was pretty sure Oscar and Jamie were doing the same.

The two men split one went for Edward and me the other went for Oscar and Renae. As the soldier reached us Edward ran forward punching the soldier squarely in the chest sending him to the ground. As the soldier got up I saw him draw a knife from his belt and hold it menacingly toward Edward and I. I saw Edward draw the soldier in, and as the soldier lunged at him Edward dived out of the way and rolled to soften the fall. The soldier had fallen onto his stomach and had winded himself. As the solider was getting up, Jamie came out from nowhere and pounced on the soldier’s back, taking the knife from his hand and holding it to the soldier’s throat. I turned to see Edward helping the others restrain the soldier with some rope from our caving supplies, which gave me an idea.

“Hey guys, steal their clothes and tie them up.” Everyone looked extremely puzzled. “Just do it.”, I called to them hurrying over to Jamie with some rope.  When we had successfully removed their uniforms and weapons, we tied the soldiers to a tree. I realised with horror that the soldiers had guns, but as Edward told me they were probably too hyped on adrenaline to use them.

“Hey, Beth, ” Milly called, “What do we do with these?” She was holding up the uniforms and the guns. I went over to her, “Do you know what nationality these soldiers are?” I asked. “Um...German, I think. Why?” Without answering her I called everyone over to where Milly and I were standing. “Okay, I want two boys to …” “That’s not a first” said Jamie jibing me, I ignored him. “I want two boys” I continued “to put these on and pretend to escort us around.” “Good idea.” said Oscar, looking genuinely impressed. I blushed. “I’ll do it!” said Edward and Jamie together.  “Good” I said as I handed them the clothes.  “Go put these on over there behind the tree”.

I waited until they were back to continue, “Okay, now you guys,” I gestured towards Edward and Jamie “will walk behind us with the rifles pointed at our feet, and we will walk ahead of with our hands up. Ohh, do any of you know the German for ‘Shut up’”, “How about you, Oscar?  You know heaps of languages.” Milly added. “Err…oh…okay.  I know this. It’s ‘Verschlossen’!” Oscar said.  I was guessing that, like most of us, he had studied a language’s swear words very intensely. I smiled to myself about that.

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Off down the street, we hadn’t gone more than one hundred paces when we heard the ominous sound of an aircraft. All of a sudden my panic set in. All I could do, all I could think about, was running. “Leg it!” I yelled, and we all immediately started running for the houses. On the right side of the road, as I got to the closest house, I looked back and saw Renae in middle of the road, on the ground, in obvious pain.  Another instinct kicked in, so I stopped running, wheeled around, and ran toward her. As I got there she tried to get up but failed, I rushed forward, picked her up and put her arm round my shoulder. I ran back to the house. The door had been kicked open, I presumed Edward. When I got up the stairs, I looked up and saw the aircraft. It was low and I could make out the emblem. It looked like a kangaroo and an emu holding a shield. “Ha,” I said out loud and slammed the door. When I turned around there were four slightly confused, and very worried people, staring at me.

 “Well, I couldn’t leave her,” I said breaking the silence. “We knew you couldn’t,” Edward said almost consolingly, “but we never expected you to run out and carry Renae back.  I mean her feet didn’t even touch the ground. You were physically carrying her.”  It took me a moment to think back, but when I did all the memories came flooding back in vivid flashes. There was me yelling, the house coming closer towards me, Renae was on the ground, then it came to me, I took her arm and slung it around my shoulder. Now Renae was shorter than me, substantially shorter when I thought about it.  “Did I just have one of those moments like; when a baby is trapped under a car and the parent lifts up the car to free their child?” I asked. There was a pause, “Yes you did,” said Edward. As I looked into his eyes an overwhelming sense of calm swept through me. “Well that’s all well and good, but can someone please take a look at my ankle,” Renae said, exasperated.  Oscar suddenly jumped forward and carried Renae into what I only could assume, (seeing I’d never been in this house,) was the lounge room. As I watched Jamie and Milly peeled off, leaving me and Edward alone in the entrance hall.

I opened my mouth to speak, but he had already started, “Don’t you ever worry me like that again, I almost had a heart attack when you ran out to the road.” He looked genuinely upset. “I’m sorry it was just a kind of instinct I guess,” I said looking at my feet, “I promise I’ll try to reason with it next time.” “Next time?” he questioned. “I am kind of hoping there won’t be a next time.” “You know what,” I said remembering something “I don’t think there will be a next time.  That aircraft, well..I was curious so I looked out and I saw it was ours, Australian. I saw our coat of arms on its side, that’s why I was happy when I came in.” Before I could say another thing he was hugging me “You know how curiosity killed the cat,” he said whispering in my ear still hugging me, “Well I think it was a freak occurrence. Because that, what you just saw, could be our ticket out of this war.” He held me to his chest for a minute or so.  We broke off and went to tell the others.

 When we finished, everyone was ecstatic.  We wouldn’t need to go through the horrors of those wars you see on television. You know, with the children crying and the parents screaming.  We wouldn’t have to face it. I went to the pantry of the house and I found a half eaten box of cherry liquors. I took it to the rest of the group and open the box. “Nice find,” Jamie said chewing on his fourth “What else is there in that cupboard?” “First of all, it’s a pantry,” I hated people using incorrect words, “and second, I just found the chocolate and ran back.  I didn’t really check what they had.” “Well we call it a cupboard in my house,” he added moodily, “but anyway go back and check what’s there.  We might have to wait a bit for things to calm down.” I had to hand it to him, even though he was sometimes extremely dumb, he did have his bright spark moments. “Okay, I’ll go check,” and I got up and left. As I left I heard Jamie’s voice say: “So do you like her?” and Edward’s answering back “Guess,” with a slight zing to his voice that made him sound cheeky and sly.

 I walked to the kitchen, blushing. As I got there and opened the pantry, I noticed flour on the floor. I must have spilt it, because I don’t remember seeing it as I walked in and I was in too much of a rush to pay attention on the way out owing to the fact I had found chocolate. As I checked the cupboards for food that we could survive on I heard a creaking sound in the corner. I turned around and saw a frying pan coming at me. I screamed and then was hit over the head.

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What was with this week and getting hit over the head? “Was it ‘hit Bethany on the head week’ or something?” I thought as the daze started to clear.  I could hear two people apologising over and over again, “We’re sorry. We’re so sorry,” almost chanting it. It was starting to worsen the already prominent headache. I opened my eyes and saw Edward, Jamie and Milly standing with two teens that I recognised as Tom and Samantha (Sam for short). Tom was tall, very tall, with features not too dissimilar to Jamie’s, and Sam was between Renae and Milly’s heights. She had brunette hair, like mine, though it was shorter.

 Tom and Sam were standing very close together; I realised, that like us, impending danger had brought them together. Edward saw that I was awake and immediately helped me into a sitting position.  But he didn’t leave me, he made sure I was okay and then helped me sit, by sitting behind me and holding me up. “Thanks,” I whispered, still a little woozy.  Then Sam said, “Oh my god! Beth. I am so sorry. I thought you were German.” Not taking that as an insult, I said “It’s alright, I would have done the same. So,” I continued, “do you know where my parents are?” I looked up at her and she was crying, “What,” I said more fiercely now, “What did they do to them?” “They took them, we escaped though, and they were looking for us.  Oh I’m so sorry.” I took a deep breath “Look,” I said, “if you say sorry one more time my head might explode.  But it’s okay because we just saw one of our own flying low.  They are bound to come and check here. I mean, we’re a pretty big town and they saw us running away from them and we were wearing German uniforms.” I put the emphasis on were, because I had noticed Edward had taken his off. “We know. They explained it to us,” Sam said.   “Cool,” I said, ”then we have an accord.” “What do you mean?” Tom asked. “You can join our group and in return you’ll stop hitting me in the head with frying pans. Deal?” Everyone laughed. “Deal,” Sam and Tom agreed together.

 We went to sleep in the lounge room because we wanted to make sure everyone was together and safe. The order of ‘beds (if you could call a doona on some carpet with a couple of cushions a bed)’ went Jamie, Milly, Oscar, Renae, Sam, Tom, me then Edward.  We found doonas in the top bedrooms. We had to share them because there was only six doonas consisting of four doubles and two singles.  People had to share the doubles, and I think you can guess who shared with whom. When I woke up I found the room had turned yellow.  This was because the sun was seeping through the curtains and the curtains were yellow. We all got up, had breakfast, and explored the house.  This family was rich.  They had gold watches, expensive televisions (notice I used a plural as they had about six) that didn’t work as the power had been cut, they had almost an entire IKEA catalogue in their rumpus room, and they had a gun cabinet which contained a rifle and a shotgun. We took them for safe keeping with all intent to give them back.  We stored them behind a sofa in the lounge room with the two pistols we’d gotten off the Germans. We went back to the lounge room a stated to discuss what to do.

“We should go to a different house,” Oscar said, “even though this is, well let’s face it, it’s a great house but they saw us running here and that means they will come looking for us.” “But if they come,” Milly added, “then there are two options.  It’s either the Germans come and we surrender or the Aussies come and we’re saved.” We looked at her.  We didn’t really know what to think.  Did we go with Oscar’s suggestion or with Renae’s?  Finally I said, “Let’s take a vote.  We can try and figure out if we stick to our original plan, or if we now keep switching between houses. But whatever we do we’ve got to stick together, we don’t know what we’re getting into. We are all in this now, you know, all for one and one for all”. Edward said nothing, he was just standing there looking at me. And then I noticed, just like before when everyone was looking at me. “What?” I said finally.  Jamie said “You’ve got a point.  We don’t know what we are getting into.  I mean, there was nothing on the radio or the news before we left, and we were only gone a day.  We can’t check now because the power’s been cut. What if we are the enemies? What if we did something to them and they’re just retaliating? What if we are the bad guys?” Everyone was dead silent “Well…we don’t know if that’s the case, and any way don’t we still have rights?” I said, a bit un-nerved by what was just said. “In any case,” Edward said, trying to put everyone at ease, “even if we did that then we should find out before jumping to conclusions. Maybe it was Germany who invaded us may-.” He was cut short by Tom who was getting frustrated and starting to yell, he wasn’t very good at keeping his temper. “We’re not Poland!”, “I never said we were. All I’m saying is that there might be other reasons for this” he ended.  He sounded slightly agitated but still in control.

 “Okay guys, let’s have lunch and think about it some more” I said.  It seemed to brighten the mood a little. “What are we having?” Milly said. “Um… I saw they had some of those Easy-Mac things before I was introduced to the frying pan.” I grinned. Sam and Tom looked embarrassed but everyone else looked relieved that I, ‘the fearless-leader’ (one of Jamie affectations), was still relaxed. We all went to the surprisingly spacious kitchen. Sam who still felt guilty had offered to cook. I let her. Even though she wasn’t known for her cooking skills, I was glad for the rest, to be honest my head was starting to ache.

We were all talking about meaningless things, Oscar and Tom were discussing torques in a brand new Mazda G.T.I or something, Renae and Milly were discussing if it was okay to kiss on first dates, and Edward and I were talking about bands.  We seemed to have more in common than I first thought. When Sam had put the meal in front of us we all shut up.  It’s not that we were really delighted to see the mound of lumpy, yellow mess, but we were all just really hungry. After we’d finished the mound we decided to rest it off, so we went to the lounge room to sleep. I was fully immersed in a vivid dream with three little, brown-haired children sitting in a bedroom, with one bed and no windows.  They were screaming for their mother as smoke started to seep under the door. That was the most realistic part; it really felt like I was choking on the smoke that filled the room. I woke up from the nightmare, my vision was hazy, and I closed my eyes, rubbed them and opened them again.

Funny… it was still hazy? I took a deep breath in and immediately started to gag; the smoke in the dream was real. I yelled for everyone to wake up, I got up, stepped forward and tripped over Edward. He woke up a little startled; he looked around and started at once to try to wake the others up once he had realised what was happening. I was now on the ground after tripping over Edward, but that was good. I remembered the fire fighters that used to come to our school and talk about fire safety ‘get down low, and go, go, go!’ So I did, I started toward where the smoke looked like it was coming from, the kitchen. When I got there I found the source of the smoke, not a fire but a pot sitting on top of the stove billowing smoke. I got up, pulled my t-shirt over my mouth and ran and to the pot to switch the gas stove off. Then I ran to the wall and opened as many windows as possible. I called back to the other room, “There’s no fire.  Open the windows.” Then I went back to the stove, took the still smoking pot and put it in the sink to dowse it in water. As the smoke started to clear I went back to the lounge room and found all of them all a bit startled but none of them were worse for wear.

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“What’s wrong?” Sam asked me, a little worried. “Oh…you left the stove on,” immediately as I said it I knew it was a bad Idea. I could see her face starting to crack, “but,” I said, making this up as I went along, “anyone of us could have done it.”  “Yeah, but it was me,” she said now crying, “I can never do anything right.  I’m always falling over, getting stuck or over reacting.” As she said that, I realised she was right.  At school she was always snapping pencils in Maths and breaking beakers in Science. “It’s all right,” I said reaching out to hug her, “we all make mistakes.” “I-I’m so sorry,” she said weeping into my right shoulder. I looked around at Edward for help.  He came forward, put one hand on her head and one on my left shoulder. I felt myself blush. “It’s all right,” he and I said together.  “Yeah,” said Tom now rubbing her back, “its okay. Shhhh”. It took a while for her to fully calm down. By then it was starting to get dark.  “We should stay here and organise our priorities” Jamie said. “Yeah,” said Oscar, “at least until we’ve figured out where we would go next”.

By that stage I was really tired, my eyes were drooping and I was having trouble holding my head up. “Well,” Edward said beside me, “we could figure out where they would be keeping our parents and families.” “What do you mean Edward?” Milly said. “I mean that we only have two places large enough to store the entire town” I thought sleepily about that. “Where?” Oscar questioned. “The council building or the sports centre” I replied tiredly. “Oh yeah,” said Oscar. “But I think,” Edward continued “they would keep them in the sports centre its bigger and it has fewer exits.” We all agreed.  Then we started some conversation about, ‘If you were stuck on a desert island what would you bring’ I fell asleep with my head resting on my arm right there on the table.

I vaguely remember someone picking me up and carrying me to the lounge room, but that was it. When I woke up next morning I found myself face to face with Edward. I lay there and watched him sleep. I noticed that the light that shone through the room in the morning was still very dim. I got up and made my way to the kitchen with the intent of making myself a coffee. We had started running out of some supplies, milk and bread, but there was powdered milk in a tin in the pantry so I made a coffee. I sat down with it and swept my eyes across the kitchen then I faced the lounge room. Edward was stirring. I decided to put the pot on the stove and re-boil the water so that others could have a cup, then I sat back down in my chair.

As Edward walked in he said “Good morning. How did you sleep? You must have been tired because you fell asleep in here last night. I had to carry you to bed.” His eyes met mine, I was transfixed. He made himself a coffee and sat down across from me. “You know?” he said, “there’s something about you that I find truly fascinating.” “Ha!” I half scoffed, “there’s nothing remotely special about me.” “No, no, no I disagree,” he said, “I find the way you face adversity truly inspiring.”  “Ugh,” I groaned, “Edward it’s too early for big words, my brain is still sleeping.” “Okay, let’s see… I love the way you handle challenges that come along. It shows true leadership.” I smiled, “See, it’s not that difficult to use smaller words.” I looked up, he was leaning close to me.  “You know,” he said smiling, “I think something must have muddle your brain.  Come to think of it hitting your head repeatedly wouldn’t help.” “Hey, hitting my head,” I corrected him, “anyway it’s just because I’m tired, that’s all.” “Really?” He questioned me, “You know, I always thought you weren’t very interesting. But now I have come to like you…more than a frien-,” he cut off and stared out the window behind me. I turned and saw a German soldier pointing his gun at us through the window. He was motioning to his friend and for the brief second that he was turned away, Edward grabbed my arm and pulled me into the lounge room. I started to wake every one up while Edward grabbed the guns and his hiking bag.

He cocked a pistol and gave it to me, he gave the other pistol to Oscar, the shotgun was given to Jamie. He cocked his rifle, swung his bag on his back and pointed the rifle toward the entrance hall. I faced the kitchen holding the pistol awkwardly. It was strange to have that power in your hands. Just like my Dad said, “It takes nine months to make a life, but only a second to take it away.” I never really realised what that meant… until now. There was a smashing of glass and the sound of a solid object snapping the wood of the door (which was already weakened by Edwards ‘spur of the moment’ action). And then they came. It felt an eternity of waiting just to see the first soldier coming through the open door from the kitchen. I hesitated, but luckily he did too. They didn’t expect us to had weapons. Then I pulled the trigger. I felt the recoil throw my arm back. And the sound, oh…I couldn’t explain it if I tried. I had no idea what would happen. It felt like everything had gone into the matrix slow-motion shots. I was waiting for him to duck or dodge out of the way. He didn’t. All I could see was the pain running through him like a Mexican wave stretching from his chest, rippling out until it hit the edges of his body and the soldier collapsed in a heap.

I saw another soldier writhing in pain next to him. Then I felt a pair of hands grabbing my waist and pulling me toward the entrance hall. Next, I was running out of the house. Milly was behind me and the rest of them were in front of me. We just sprinted down the road not knowing where to go or what to do. We turned a corner and headed for a derelict house which everyone said was haunted. We sprinted around the back and kicked in the door. We headed upstairs and ran into the first room that faced the street. We dropped our guns and Edward’s bag on the floor and looked out the window for any sign of danger. We waited and waited. The waiting was the worst because you could think back to what you just saw. What you just did. That was when I cracked.  All I could do was curl up in a ball. I was rocking backwards and forwards and I couldn’t do anything else. Tears welled up in my eyes. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t hear anything. I could just remember the sound of the shot. I just sat there rocking backwards and forwards. Edward turned around. He realised what I was doing and he rushed over to me and started to hold me. I could tell he was talking, his lips were moving. But, I still couldn’t hear him. I’m pretty sure that he realised I couldn’t hear him, so he shook me out of my stupor.

I looked up at him. He started telling me over and over again, “It’s alright, it’s okay, and you’re alright,” he said crooning to me in the same soft voice he used in the cave. I took a while to calm me down. Evidently the Germans hadn’t seen us running into this house, but as Jamie pointed out, “We still need to keep moving.” I realised suddenly, “That plane I saw, what if it didn’t see us? What if they haven’t found out about us?” “They couldn’t have missed that,” Edward murmured in my ear. He had taken to sitting behind me holding me upright. “But,” I hesitated, “what we should do is find a mobile and try and contact outside help,” I paused. “Does anyone know of anyone with a phone?” I thought for a minute. We lived in a reasonably big town, but it was isolated from the outside world. Not many of us had really expensive things but those who did have them had them in excess example A: the televisions at the hide-out house.

 “I think,” Tom said finally, “the Ackroyd’s have one. You know what Susie’s like. She is as adventurous as I am tall.” ”Yeah, they’re bound to have one, let’s go and-” Edward interrupted Milly, “No. We should send only a couple of people. It would be easier for the soldiers to catch eight of us than just two.  And if two are caught then our crusade wouldn’t be over.” I thought about that for a moment. I inhaled deeply and said “I’ll go.” Edward put his chin on my shoulder looked at me, “No” he said. It startled me how dark his voice could be, “You’ve done enough hero work let someone else share the limelight.” I blushed, “Okay,” Sam and Tom said together, “I’ll go” they said still speaking in unison. “We shouldn’t stay here,” I said, “they’re bound to come looking for those who were responsible for the, the-” I couldn’t bring myself to say it, I was hoping that they understood what I was trying to say. “We know,” Edward said reassuringly, “we know what you mean.” I inhaled, “So we should go to the, um…, rainforest and meet up at the clearing?” “Okay,” said Tom and Sam, “We’ll leave soon but whatever you do don’t come looking for us, we’ll find you.” We all just sat there not really wanting them to go, when I finally realised “Which way are we going?” “We should go around the outskirts running from house to house,” Edward said. At least he was still thinking rationally. “Okay,” I thought, “that could work”. “Are you guys ready to go” I asked Tom and Sam. They looked hesitantly at me, “Y-yes,” they seemed unsure. “Yeah we’ll go. Just In case we don’t see you again, goodbye,” she was crying. I got up and ran forward, my arms stretched out to hug her. “I’m sorry you have to do this,” I said now crying into her shoulder. We exchanged our farewells. Tom took the rifle and from the bedroom window we saw them jogging out of the house and down the road.

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We decided to wait until nightfall, which left a lot of time to sit around and do absolutely nothing. That was what I hated the most, sitting down and doing nothing. Everyone went to their own little corners; there was Renae on the bed, Jamie in the corner nearest the window, Edward in the corner to Jamie’s right, Milly in the one to Jamie’s left and me in the corner opposite Jamie. I kept thinking about that soldier.  About his family, if he had a wife or kids. I kept seeing the ripple of pain and anguish. I knew I would never forget that memory. Edward came over and sat down next to me. I started to feel drowsy, I don’t know if it was because I woke up early, or because I was sitting in the sun. I lay my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. I woke up about an hour later, with a stiff neck and a back ache. I got up and stretched, I felt my spine crack back into place, it felt a lot better. I looked over at Edward, he was sleeping.  He had his head against the wall. He looked really peaceful.

I went over to the window and sat next to Jamie who had moved, I guessed because it was too uncomfortable. “Nice sleep?” Jamie winked at me. “Yeah,” I answered back. “Did you get any?” He thought, “I don’t know. you know that thing where you kind of go into a stupor…well I did that, I don’t know if you count that as sleeping or not. But it got really uncomfortable so I came over here”. “Yeah,” I said “I think it’s kind of like day-dreaming, I guess it’s sleeping”, there was a pause, it was kind of awkward. “Bethany,” he said breaking the silence, “do you think Milly likes me?”. I sat there and thought “You know what? I think she does” I answered with certainty, “Really?” he sounded exited. “Mmm” I nodded, there was another silence, but a good kind, not awkward or anything. “You know,” he said breaking the silence again, “I think Edward likes you as well”. “As well?” I questioned him, immediately turning from my normal skin tone to fire engine red “What do you mean as well?”.

He looked at me, and then at Edward, then back at me. “Oh, come on” he said, a little exasperated. “You know it in your heart that you like him. Come on, you know this crap better than I do, ‘true left love unspoken is the quickest route to a broken heart’ and all that junk. I know he likes you, why don’t you just accept the way you feel about him.” I was silent.  I knew I had no come back and no Smart Alec answers. He got me. I did like Edward. “Okay,” I whispered “I like Edward. Is that a crime?” “No,” he answered. “Just tell him how you feel.” “This is a war zone, for crying out loud,” I said, much more loudly than I had intended. Edward yawned, opened his eyes and looked at us both. I smiled and decided to go vanish to the bathroom to ‘wash my face’. As I walked out I glanced at the clock that the previous owners had left. It was, and I was assuming it was the correct time, 5:45.

“What a dump” I said out loud to myself. There were tiles falling off the wall, the shower was missing taps and the floor was knee deep in dust and cobwebs. I walked over to the sink and struggled with the tap until it gushed out water. I adjusted the tap to a suitable pressure, caught the water in my cupped hands and splashed it over my face. When I had finished, I walked back to the bedroom and went to sit back by the window. Jamie and Edward were there.  Jamie looked guilty and Edward looked smug. Ugh… I was going to kill Jamie. Clearing my head with a deep breath, I sat down next to Edward and asked. “Do any of you know the time, the clock out there says its five forty-five, but I’m not sure?” Edward checked his watch, “It’s about six, so it wasn’t far off. It’s getting darker.  We should wake the others so we can head of as soon as it is dark.” I stood up and went to wake Oscar, he wasn’t too happy that I woke him, but I told him it was for the best.

When everyone was up, we determined the route. “Try and stick together,” I said. “We should head for the clearing if we get split up though.” They all agreed on that.  We headed down the stairs and to the back door. I had the pistol again. Edward taught me how to put the safety on and off so I wouldn’t have it live as we were trying to sneak around the outskirts of town and into a rainforest. He gave the shot gun to Jamie and he kept the other pistol. It went dark pretty quick. We were lucky because sometimes the moon can just light up the sky and make everything as bright as day, but tonight cloud had swept in from the east. It looked like the only thing we would have to worry about was bumping into things. We set off running in between the houses.  We sent someone off in front as scout.  If it was safe, they’d wave a white handkerchief to signal to us.

When it was my turn to be scout I ran forward.  As I got to the house I tripped over a dog bowl and fell over.  Just my luck. But I got up, turned around and signalled for everyone to follow. It was tedious running between houses, but we were making good time. Later on it started to rain.  The further we got into our journey, the heavier the rain became. The trip around the outskirts of town was about 10 km.  We may not have lived in a very big town, but we sure lived in a spacious one. At the half-way point we stopped and rested for a bit. The backdoor of the house we stopped at was open, so we popped in for a quick snack. We found some fruit cake on the bench, it was kind of old but still nice. When we got closer towards the sports centre we could distant shouting that made me anxious. Sensing my anxiety, Edward held my hand. I felt my face become hotter. As we were reaching the end of our ‘little trip’ I heard something that sounded like gun fire. That made me more anxious. I squeezed Edwards hand tighter and bit my tongue trying not to scream.

We quickened our pace. As we got to the edge of town there was a one hundred metre wide paddock commonly called ‘the paddock of doom’. Legend has it some kid was killed there. But thought it was just away for parents to scare their kids into not going there, because as my mum would put it “the people who hang out there are less than desirable.”  Kids had built jumps on the paddock to ride bikes over and do tricks. We had all agreed back at the derelict house that we would sprint to the other side, then make our may to the clearing. “Ready?” I asked in a timid voice. “Yep,” Jamie said.  “Just remember, if you trip don’t, I repeat, don’t scream.”

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We all sprinted, the distance was nothing but the terrain was treacherous. You could never plot it because the kids kept changing it, modifying it, tearing down it and starting a fresh. The problem with that was that there were mounds and holes and branches riddling the area. As I ran I could see black shapes in my peripheral vision dodging and weaving. I think I was too focused on that to realize what I was doing. As I looked up I saw a mound of dirt moulded into a jump. I weaved around it and found myself face to face with a log. I couldn’t stop, it was too late. Instinctively I leaped forward like a ballerina, with one leg stretched in front of me and one behind. But I caught my foot on the log and immediately went from leaping to falling forward toward the ground. I put my hands instinctively over my face and braced for impact, I hit the ground hard. I was lucky, I’d put my hand over my face.  Otherwise I would have concussed myself… again.  I pulled myself up, feeling an agonising pain in my right knee. But I continued to run toward the rainforest. As I got closer to the forest I could hear someone else running beside me. I turned and saw Milly, I was guessing her ankle was still sore from her fall two days ago. We got to the forest  and were greeted by Oscar, Jamie, Renae, and Edward.

As we headed off toward the clearing, I felt the pain in my knee grow stronger. I guess it was just a cut and maybe some gravel rash or something, but it was getting worst and worst. As I walked I tried not to think about the pain that was now causing me to limp. Edward noticed. “What’s wrong?” he asked, sounding anxious. “Oh, it’s nothing. I just fell over on the run and now my knee is hurting that’s all.” “I wondered why you were slow? I mean you’re quite fit, so I thought that run would have been like a walk in the park.” I giggled at that. Walking along I began to limp more prominently. It wasn’t far to the clearing and I was able to see it. When we were almost there, my knee buckled making me fall forward. Edward helped me up and put his arm around my waist which helped me to walk. “When we get to the clearing,” he said now very anxious, “I’m going to have to take a look at your knee.” I nodded.

When we got to the clearing my knee was starting to throb. I got to the log in the middle of the clearing with Edward’s help. He helped me sit down, swung his bag off his back and knelt beside me. I saw him pull out a torch and a red container the size of a shoe box. He turned towards my leg and shone the torch on it. How could I describe it? My knee was bleeding from a large cut right down its centre, it was surrounded by gravel rash, my leg was purple and visibly swelling and it had bit of rocks still embedded in it. “Are you alright?” he asked. “Um…” I said now going pale with the pain, “No I-I think my kneecap is broken”. He bent closer toward my knee, “Yeah I think so too,” he said sounding rather worried. “I’m going to have to clean and dress the wound,” he said now in a croon. “It will hurt, but you mustn’t move too much because you might damage it even more.” I took in what he had just said, inhaled, nodded and said “I’ll need to hold someone’s hand.” “I’ll do it,” piped up Renae who was behind me. “Okay,” I took her hand and started to think about other things like Mum and Ead and…Edward.

But then the pain hit me like a torrent of water. Bang!  It spread from my knee all the way up to my chest. It suffocated me. I looked down, Edward was wiping the cut with Dettol. He got tweezers out and started carefully removing pieces of embedded rock. After that was done he got Jamie to carefully hold my leg up and he wrapped my knee in a skin coloured compression bandage.  I sat there on the log for what felt like days. It was cold and I only had a t-shirt on. When I started to shiver, Edward came over pulled off his jacket and gave it to me, “Is it feeling better?” He asked in a worried voice. “Yeah, it’s starting to throb, but that only means its healing.” He smiled and sat down on the log. “What time is it?” I asked, I couldn’t see the suns rays yet so it must still be late. “It’s only twelve. You should get some rest.” “Mmm,” I agreed.  Then without warning he pulled me back gently, but firmly, and put my head in his lap, “Go to sleep,” he whispered, I obliged.

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“How are you feeling?” Edward asked as I yawned and opened my eyes. “Better.  But my knee is really stiff.” “We need to keep it still, otherwise it might split the kneecap even more.” “So you do think it’s broken?” I asked. “More than certain. When my brother broke his, the symptoms, the colour, it’s almost identical.” “Almost?” I asked perplex. “Yeah,” he smiled. “My brother cried.” I giggled and turned red again. “So what time it is now?” He looked at his watch, “Just past nine.” “Nine?”I said confused, “I slept for that long?” I sat up and stretched I was really stiff. “Will you help me get to the shade?” I asked. “Of course,” he replied. I swung my stiff leg over the log so that I was sitting facing the shady trees. I stood up putting all my weight on my left leg.  Edward came around to my right side and wound his arm around my waist. I hobbled to the tree and sat down in the shade. “When do you think they will come?” I asked him. “Soon”, he murmured. “Cool,” I said as I lay back against a tree. “Wake me when they get here,” I closed my eyes.

I had a vivid dream.  Edward, Jamie, Mum, Dad, Sam, Tom, Oscar and Renae were all there, for awhile I wondered where ‘there’ was. I looked up there was a scoreboard and a couple of hoops. Now that I looked we were in the sports centre and everyone, the whole town, was there safe and secure. Then the soldiers came in, and started waving their guns around, it was frightening. A small child was calling for her mother the soldier was yelling at her and pointing his gun at her. She was crying, almost screaming. I turned away and then I heard the ominous shot, it was exactly like the one in the hide out house. I tried to wake up, forcing myself to but I couldn’t. I heard my name being called. I thought it was a soldier. I started thrashing trying to get away from the voice. Then I woke up.

I saw Edward looking at me with pleading eyes, “Are-are you alright?” I looked up and swallowed, feeling tears well up in my eyes. He pulled me toward him, I felt myself starting to cry. He held me to his chest soothing my pain with his voice. “It’s alright,” he crooned over and over again. I calmed down and told him about the dream. He was still cradling in his arms. He just sat there listening.  We sat there not talking, just thinking and watching the birds flitting in and out of the trees. “We might have to go back to town, we’re running low on food.” Edward had managed to get some food in his over stuffed backpack while we were in the hide out house looking around. “Mmm,” I agreed. I had gone off the idea of food. I was still a little shaken up from the dream. They decided to go to the town tomorrow at about six at night. That left all day to do nothing. But of course, I wasn’t doing anything anyway because of my injury.

At six they left. It was quiet. Renae had stayed behind. We didn’t talk much, she was too worried about Oscar to talk. What we did say to each other was short and to the point. Like, “Do you want any water?” or “Are you tired?”  At least I had some company, she was always right next to my where ever I went. I slept for most of the day. It’s amazing how you get so tired from doing nothing. The others came back at six pm the next day. They told us that the Germans were holding the town captive in the sports centre, and that they had to wait to bring the supplies back till after dark. They thought someone had seen them, but no one was following them now. I went, with the help of Edward, to the shady tree. I lay down in the grass. It was so peaceful, there were no sounds. I put my head on Edwards lap and stared at the tree above looking at all the patterns and colours. I realized that Edward was staring at me. I got embarrassed and flushed red. He chuckled, but continued to stare.

 “What?” I said still embarrassed. “It’s nothing really,” he admitted. “It was just…I love the way you blush. It’s all of a sudden but it’s so cute.” I blushed again but this time I felt my face get really hot, I knew I must look like a tomato. “See,” he said not breaking his gaze, “It’s all of a sudden.” He put his hand on my cheek, and I returned to watching the tree.

I don’t know how long I was asleep, but when I woke up it was raining and getting dark. I hobbled over to the camp stove the guys had ‘borrowed’ and sat down. They started to discuss what they favourite season was. “You see I love spring,” I said. “Everything is alive I get the feeling that I’m in love. In spring, you know that lighted headed buzzy feeling.” “That’s probably just hay fever,” said Jamie, as cynical as always. “It does that to me as well. You see the good season to like is winter. Coz then you can go snowboarding” “Ha,” I scoffed. “You haven’t been any where that couldn’t be classified as sub-tropical.” He frowned “Nah, I went to…um…Syd-” he cut off and stared into the rainforest, the side closest to town, because birds had just set off one of those wildlife alarm calls. The one that alerts other animals to the presence of…danger.

We acted immediately. Edward grabbed me and carried me to the other side of the clearing, he went back to the others. Jamie already had picked up the shotgun. Edward grabbed the pistol and gave the other one to Renae (she was a better shot than Oscar). They all loaded and cocked they guns and pointed it toward the rainforest, I felt dread creeping up on me. I saw my friends Renae, Jamie and Edward protecting me from the imposing threat, I saw Milly and Oscar running back to me with fear spread across they beautiful faces. I realized this was all my fault if I hadn’t told them to come caving with me none of this would have happened. They would be safe with their parents, sure maybe they would have been held captive, but at least they would have been safe. I felt so bad, all the things that had happened the fight on the street, the shoot off, all our injuries and us splitting up was all me. I started to cry. Milly an Oscar who had reached me were now comforting me, “it’s going to be alright.” I couldn’t help myself it just burst out “No it’s not,” I tried to speak clearly through the tears. “This is all my fault, I’m so sorry”. They looked at me very worried “He-hey, we are still alive aren’t we?” Oscar said after an angry glance from Milly. “Only just,” I said through the tears now pouring down my face. “No don’t be so stupid,” Milly said in frustration. “We don’t even know you are trying to be sorry for.” I took a deep breath, “Fo-for everything. It was my fault we went on that stu-stupid caving trip. If it weren’t for me you wo-would be safe in the sports centre with your family. Not defending your liv-lives in a rainforest clearing.” My voice kept breaking, but I didn’t care. “Bethany, we probably would have been in just as much danger at the sports centre than if we were here.” The thought of that calmed me down enough to look over at the others, standing with their backs towards us with guns raised.  Everything fell silent; you could have heard a pin drop. Then the ominous sound of feet sloshing through the dense under-growth, I saw them two slightly dirty and a little worst of wear people that I Knew as…

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“Tom. Sam. Oh we’ve missed you so much,” I got up and hopped, very ungainly toward them. I literally fell on Sam but luckily she caught me and pulled me into a hug. “Ohh, I’ve missed you guys, I was so worried about you.” I got out of her hug and then threw my arms around Tom as Milly hugged Sam. “We should get out of the rain,” I said finally as we all had hugged and exchanged hellos. I started hobbling back to the shady tree which now double and cover for the elements when Edward grabbed me and carried me back to the trees in his arms. “You didn’t have to do that you know,” I whispered in his ear when he sat down next to me. He smiled and whispered back “But I wanted to.”

We sat in a circle with my leg in the centre (I still couldn’t bend it). “What happened to you?” Tom asked me eyeing my swollen and bruised leg. “I was just about to ask the same question,” I replied. “Well, ladies first.” “Okay, okay,” and I started to tell them about our journey to the clearing and my ‘little trip’. When I finished they were looking at me with a mixture of empathy and worry. “It will be alright,” I said spotting their faces. “So,” I said “what happened to you?” “Well,” Tom said, “we had gotten to the house fine, and we got the phone, but we needed to charge it. So, we looked around and we found one of those chargers that plug into the cigarette lighter in the car, you know the ones. So we found the keys and went out to the car. When I got in I plugged it up to the charger in the car and waited it took us like an hour to realized that we had to turn the car on to charge it.” I rolled my eyes. “Okay, so we turn it on, and Bam! I don’t know if Susie is deaf or not, but that kid cranks her music up loud. It took about ten seconds to find the button that switches the CD player off, then we quickly charged it but, it was too late we drawn to much attention to ourselves. They came and well you heard the gun fire right.” I nodded. “So…ahh...anyway we had to lie low for a couple of days, you know. Not go running through the town like headless chickens. Once the scene died down we went back to the car and got the phone,” “They didn’t turn the car off when you were lying low?” I looked at him confused. “Nah, they it’s a really nice Merc, 12-oh-9 I think. A beauty, really quite.” “Sweet. Is that the one with the 1200 torque engine?” ”Ahem.” I smiled. Jacob Ackroyd was a entrepreneur “Then” Tom continued, with a tint to his cheeks, “We waited for nightfall and came here.” We smiled at each other and then Edward said, “Hang on, you got it?” “Yeah. We’re not completely hopeless you know.” I looked at them with a grin spread across my face.

“Lets call the army. Susie’s father is in the army she’s bound to have his contact. They could probably help us.” I thought about what we would say. ‘Hello? Yes...Um, my town’s been invaded and we need help.’ It sounded kind of right. Tom had given Edward the phone. “Okay,” Edward said. “I’ll go try and get reception. The middle of the clearing might have some.” “I’ll go with you,” I said wanting to leave the others to catch up. They always seemed to get along better without me clouding them up with my sensibility. He helped me out to the middle of the clearing then he bent over the phone. He went and sat on the log, He turned the phone on and then into contacts and searched ‘D’ for Dad there was nothing. I remembered her Dad’s name was Jeremy so I leaned over and punched in ‘J’ for Jeremy. We got something there was Jeremy’s home and work number we called his work. Edward put it on speaker and we listened to the dial tone.

It started ringing, ‘Ring, Ring’.  We waited.  On the fourth ring I became worried, but then there was the sound of the phone being picked up. “Susie” the voice sounded scared. “No we answer together “it’s one of Susie’s friends.” ”What happened to Susie?” he asked his voice almost at breaking point. “Nothing,” I said “Look…we’ve been invaded Mr. Ackroyd and we don’t know what to do.” “Invaded, invaded by whom?” He sounded disbelieving now. “The Germans, Mr. Ackroyd and we ar-are really scared,” my voice was starting to break. “What can I do?” he asked, “Bring support,” Edward said.“We really need your help.” He took a deep breath in “Hang on. I’ll go get the Captain.” There was a rustling and banging on his end, we heard the distant call of ‘Cap’n’.

We waited for a minute “I’ll put you on speaker” he said sounding very important. There was a beep and then a new voice “This is Captain J. Bogg, but call me Justyn.” This voice sounded young and fresh he was probably only twenty five. “Please Justyn,” it sounded weird addressing someone we didn’t even know, by their first name. “You’ve got to help us there are some people invading our town,” I found myself begging to a stranger it felt unusual. “We will help you,” Justyn said, “just tell me where you are.” “We are in a town in Queensland called Mapoon. But we are hiding in a rainforest clearing just north of the town.” “Okay”, he said. “We will be there in mmm…about three days. All you have to do is stay there and keep out of their sight. We’re going to get your families first and then come for you. Good luck.” “You too. Good bye,” I said in a choked voice as the phone call ended. We were going to be fine, we were going to get out of this and our families would be rescued as well. Joy surged through me andI wanted to do something wild I looked at Edward, he was staring back at me.

I resisted the urge to tackle him to the ground. Instead I went for a hug. He held me there in the pouring rain. I looked at him there was a triumphant look in his eye and a sly smile on his face. He bent his head down and kissed my nose, lightly but slowly. I moved my face up so that our noses were touching. Then, he kissed me. A little hesitantly at first probably just gauging my reaction. I kissed him back. I felt the rain soak my back, his hands on my shoulders. I put my hands behind his head and knotted his hair with my hands. There was a loud coughing sound from behind us; it snapped us out of our trance. I turned towards the others, a little embarrassed but all together thrilled. I looked at them all, standing with us in the rain. Jamie turned towards me “Good news?” I smiled slyly “Guess.”